Life...it waxes and wanes. It ebbs and flows. Tide comes in, tide goes out.
Our baby is sleeping through the night. We are new people with all this sleep. It's funny though. Once you get a taste of precious uninterrupted sleep, your body shows just how exhausted it really is. And all you can think about is more sleep. More sleep, more sleep. It's so deliciously wonderful. I think we're starting to catch back up.
Our baby is sleeping through the night. We are new people with all this sleep. It's funny though. Once you get a taste of precious uninterrupted sleep, your body shows just how exhausted it really is. And all you can think about is more sleep. More sleep, more sleep. It's so deliciously wonderful. I think we're starting to catch back up.
My hair is falling out. I'm not sure that any will be left once the hormones stabilize. Really. Clumps appear all over the place. I find long strands wrapped around baby toes, stuck in towels, and wads in the laundry. I had forgotten this part. It's not my fav.
We made an important decision several months ago and the cat's out of the bag. Come fall, this mama will be staying home. Wife and mother only, school teacher no more. I know, I know! I can't believe it. While it's what I've always hoped for, I am grieving. When I started my job seven years ago, I'd just gotten married and moved to a new place. These precious people I work with watched me grow into my role as wife, they cried with me as we waited those long years for children, they celebrated with me as I turned into a mother. They have encouraged me and loved me. They have been my family away from home. Saying goodbye breaks my heart. 
And then there is another part of me that is shakin' in my boots with fear. To not have something outside my home is going to be a big shift for my heart. Will I only wear yoga pants and clean my house for the rest of my life? I am afraid of the pressure I will put on myself to keep the fingerprints wiped off and the floors crumb free and delicious three course meals cooked daily. I mean, after all, I'm AT HOME. 
But above all else, my heart rejoices deeply for the way God has blessed us so that we could make the choice for me to stay home. To invest in my children, to teach them and train them myself. Oh, how I rejoice! It will be hard. It will be good. The tide goes in, the tide goes out. Cheers to a new season!
12 comments:
love the new header-glad your getting to stay home.
Yay! It is a hard transition, but one that I know you will love. You're going to be amazing. Clean floors are overrated. Bring on the playdates!!!
So, so happy for your family. You are certainly blessed!
It is definitely a transition, but one that you will learn to embrace and love. It was always my desire too and I was surprised when I felt a little "off" once I stayed home with the twins. I didn't realize how much of my self worth I got from my "job". I'm only telling you that just so you won't "feel bad" if you feel a little unhappy at first. God will help you find joy in the mundane. You will LOVE it!! No one ever looks back on life and says "I wish I didn't stay home with my kids." They say the opposite. You'll never regret it!
It's a hard transition, no doubt about it, and there are days I feel like a failure because the house is a mess and dinner isn't cooked, but really it is such a WONDERFUL experience for you and your kiddos. Congratulations!
Yay yay and yay! I say if you can work and be a mama- you are a champ at anything!!! You will love having your own "class" at home!!
Congrats on the new adventure! You will love being there for all the little moments!
Woo hoo! I'm with Emilee...bring on the playdates! It's hard...like..H..A...R...D...but so worth it. My house is a mess alot and dinners aren't always perfect but I'm there for every milestone, smile, tear, fight, and I wouldn't change that for the world. Really excited for you!
Beautiful pictures and dresses on the girls!!!! Congrats on getting to stay-at-home!!! It is so much fun!! You will love it!!!
I second and third and fourth what the others have said- it is HARD. Harder than it sounds. And it is OK at first to be sad or lost or whatever you want to call it... after you adjust, you will find some creative outlet that is JUST for you and has no ties to being Mom. (And goodness knows you are talented enough to find something you can do because you enjoy it AND make some $ off of it too if you want!)
And as for the fingerprints- a wise friend who is a little older than me and has a few more kids than me once told me this: Your title is stay-at-home MOM. Your primary goal is to be their MOM. They will not remember that there were no fingerprints on the fridge. Yes, of course do a good job with those responsibilities, but be sure to enjoy those babies first and foremost. Teach them all the things you worried you might not get to do if you weren't there, play all of the games, splash in the puddles, make mud pies, paint, and snuggle. The fingerprints can wait. This stage will be over in a blink.
Love you!
Oh, what a great post and I loved reading the comments. I'm a stay at home mom (who dabbles in design here and there!) but it is definitely the hardest job I've ever had. But also the most rewarding. I try to remind myself of that often... and just take one day at a time!
You'll love staying at home! Soak up as much of your babies as possible and enjoy every second... if you need "adult" talk, let us know!
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