today is a big day in the story of my family. today is my precious nephew's first birthday. today is my sister-in-law and her husband's third anniversary. and today is also the day my parents divorced. i am overwhelmed with grief. i'm sad that t3's birthday is the same day of such a tragedy- but then again, his little life is part of this story of redemption.
it was exactly 1061 days ago that my parents separated. it was the day of my college graduation...friday the 13th. i didn't even know that my dad was there to see me walk until i heard him yell the name that only he calls me, as i shook hands and accepted my fake diploma. experiences change your heart. they shape you. and the things that make you who you are, are most often the things that you do not choose for yourself.
i've mentioned before that God has used means in which i never expected to capture my heart. my parent's divorce is one of those things. their separation rocked my world. it happened just 5 weeks before i entered into that very same covenant. it was terrifying for me to see that which i had thought was so solid come crumbling down. but it also led to a deeper understanding of Christ's love for me. this separation, this divorce is as far as the east is from the west compared to God's unconditional love. how amazing is His pursuit of me.
II chronicles 16:9 says, "for the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His." i claim this verse as my own, today especially. i know His eyes have rested on my troubled heart.
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